PART ONE My ROAD To Becoming a better housewife and home maker. And so, I have learned many things in the last years of great effort why I can not keep a clean house. I have soaked up as much information as I could and sought to apply it as best I as I could. I STILL live in a messy house. Can nothing be done? No, I will not conclude this. As I have been learning about housework, I have also been learning about the mind and how it effects life, I have learned about circumstances and surroundings also and how they affect life, I sought reason for the madness of living in chaos and the why's so that I can in hope find the answers and in tern the remedy to apply. You see in my mind, I see a very VERY put together home. Everything in its place and completely within grasp of when you need it, clean, usable, unbroken, pieces all together, etc. In my mind, I can not understand why these things should not be attainable for me. It seems so easy, and so I press on every day starting with my head held high... but soon, I find myself in an overwhelmed state and failure and guilt ridicule me. I get depressed, my feet get heavy, my mind gets cluttered, my breathe shortened. Anxiety sets in, worry, heartbreak. This is just trying to keep house, I am not mentioning being married, being a mother to THREE young children, being a STEP mother to one TEENager, and the list goes on!!!

Facebook Friends don't always get me

I love to write. I write on Facebook thinking more people will comment. Sometimes I am surprised at who does comment and who doesn't. Blogging seems more appropriate as the people reading this either care deeply about me or they are searching for the very topics I am writing about. I will tell you ahead of time. I am not diagnosed ADHD by a therapist. I am self diagnosed ADD by my own reading and watching and observing and searching out helps for myself. Today I have to run one of my children to an appointment which I am now feeling the rush begin to get the door and yet I feel I can still write this which likely means I am pushing being late once again. Being busy in my head all of the time is no easy thing. For those of you reading this, you may be on your own course to figure it out. I want to encourage you that life does go on, some days are better then others, and I will help you as I can with the information I find out about myself. I hope you enjoy this blog as I write it and that I can stay with it for me and for you. Lets all try to smile more today as just one goal, okay? Your comrade in the crazies, Melanie